i hope

i hope that i am not pushing away someone that is very special to me. I do not mean any disrespect when i say no. i believe that good things come to those who wait. im not in a hurry anymore. i enjoy building a relationship on other things besides sex. go ahead everyone laugh it up. i dont care anymore. im tired of people laughing at me for something that i believe in very strongly. i hope my beliefs are not pushing someone away. maybe if they understood it was a decision i have personally made from past experiences. maybe if they understood that it was not easy for me to be who i am. maybe if they understood that i want more than physical. maybe if the understood that i am constantly fighting myself. maybe if they understood that its not that i do not want to but i know i should wait. maybe then they will not laugh at me. i hope that im not pushing someone away that is important to me. when the time is right for me then i will give you everything you want but i need to understand my decision, i constantly wonder what it would be like to be as everyone else. im tired of being different. im tired of being laughed at. im tired of being the one who gets past over cause i would not conform. i hope i am not pushing away someone who is important to me. plz understand

smooth sailing

well i have been through the good weather and the bad
right now im smooth sailing
i think that everyone needs some bad weather
the bad weather will build character
it will test the you and show the real you
it will show the world the type of man you are
plus with out bad weather you will never fully appreciate the good.
i believe im coming to a point where i need to start showing people the type of man i am

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when she smiles

no matter how bad things seem
now matter how long the day
no matter how bored i am
when she smiles
i smile
just a glimpse of her makes me smile
so imagine if i seen that smile everyday
how happy would the world seem to be

when everything seems to be going dark
i always seem to find a light far in the distance
i think the light is so far away because i know i need to keep moving.
never stop in the dark. always head toward the light
if the light was close your journey would be almost over
i dont think im ready for my journey to be over.
ill keep walking in the dark for now
but i know there is always light up ahead

forest

long dark trails through the forest we call life
there are ups and downs lefts and rights
there are roots to trip on and holes to fall in
you can get lost and easily forgotten
when every tree looks the same, every branch laid that way
how do you know where your going
walking through the woods is never safe
but who can you trust to walk with you in the forest
the have to be trustworthy,dedicated,and honorable
someone you can depend on to help you
to help when you cant see in the dark
to help when you trip on the root
to help when you have fallen in that hole
not just anybody can be trusted with whats important
you need someone to walk hand and hand
you dont always need a leader or a follower
sometimes you need someone who is your equal
someone who gets you through the rough times
sometimes...you just need someone to walk with you in the
forest